I’ve have had some really terrible things happen to me,

I’ve had other human beings do awful things to me,

I’ve witnessed other human beings do awful things to each other,

I’ve done awful things to myself, to others,

I’ve even survived life threatening illnesses, yup – done that too.

All of them horrifying life experiences I would wish on no one.

I don’t want to be remembered for these things,

or remembered for surviving these things,

or remembered for surviving in spite of these things.

Honestly, I just don’t want to remember these things.

What I do want to be remembered for is living fully

not in spite of,

or in survival of,

or graded on some curve in comparison to the terrors of  –  my past,

But rather, I’d like to be remembered for the right now to the bone love of being alive.

And maybe tomorrow I’ll look at this post and roll my eyes, a little too cool for my own naked little heart, but in this moment, it’s the truth.

What do you want to be remembered for?


This was me 10 years ago. It was emailed to me this morning – someone, I don’t know who, found it on my son’s old Angelfire website. I love this photo, look at that beautiful little boy, can you believe he’s 15 now?

And when I say graphic, I mean the kind that involves swearing… a lot. Anyhow, I think I’ve got the DVD cover set for Life In Perpetual Beta, finally.

LIPB DBD COVER

IS it finally done?