Residue of a life less trusting still hanging on the rim of my cup

So, I’ve been watching these DVD sent to me by a coaching school that wants to sponsor my movie – and I’m trying to be objective, trying not to judge, trying to see if they would be a good fit before I take their money and pay all the people working on the film that are currently working for free… There is of course a problem.  I love their stuff, I can’t be objective, I suck at weighing sponsorship have/have nots.   I suck at being objective about anything I’m emotionally invested in.  But then, I’m thinking, so – what I’ve been asking for is to find someone to help pay for the film that is 100% in alignment with what I’m doing.  A tall order right?  And I think I’ve found that someone – But this unattractive residue from a life less trusting is still hanging on to the rims of my cup, I see it and wonder if I can truly listen to my heart in matters of money.  Maybe I’ve been watching too many made for TV movies about deceitful lovers, I can’t say.

I guess I’ll just take a leap and use thier money and make a spectacular movie.